rah............
i realise i always say things tt hide my feelings inside.
somehow, i feel abit fake like i'm hiding my real self,
the selfish and petty self)=
this is bad,
bad for my heart, bad for my body, bad for my mind.
but good for others haha..
pple will think tt i'm actly tt nice, tt selfless.
ease their minds while i suffer zzz..
but i'm not all that.
i get sad and angry for no reason too.
haha i'm not gna say it's pms, last time was the last time i was gna say tt.
zzz is so much nicer to say then sianzz haha random.
hmm probly it's just me being too sensitive such tt i get all those bad feelings,
not gd not gd.
gta learn t look at the bigger picture and not focus on myself only!!
i feel zzz to noe how selfish i can be))=
i'm a bad girl..

从来没想过不能再和你牵手
委屈时候没有你陪着我心痛
一切都是我太过骄纵以为你会懂
一直忘了说我有多感动

我知道你还是爱着我
虽然分开的理由我们都已接受
你知道我会有多难过
所以即使到最后还微笑着要我加油
我知道你还放不下我
才会在离开时闭着眼没有回头
我们都知道彼此心中
其实这份爱没停过

曾经完整幸福的梦在脑海里头
我多希望你还在我左右

答应你我会好好过
不让这些眼泪白流

~我知道 by2~

WOAH finally back from camp!!! ((=
it's a Sirius-ly crazy week!
met the Sirius peeps at pre-camp, thought they were abit too quiet.
tt thought din change on the first day of camp, too quiet!!
then things started changing aft field and dirty games((=
now all of them are like good frens talking abt the good times and stuff,
AND I CAN'T JOIN IN COS FB HATES ME)=
hope we have an outing soon, tt'll be the starting point to keeping them tgt even aft the camp.
KBOX KBOX!!!

ytd i made tingwei wait for 2 hrs for me))= cos i was so tired, when i crashed, i crashed for 4hrs straight!
i felt quite bad for tt, and he was quite angry over it.
i would be too))=
but after we talked abt it, he was okay le,
after all, he din wait for 2hrs just to be angry with me mah(=
we went to have lunch and he bought this super cool-looking black jacket, i like!((=
then we're off to PS to watch INCEPTION!!
it's a super cool movie!
a movie tt requires you to think and process wad's being said, then you'll understand it.
aft tt we went for dinner/supper at cafe cartel's.
i tried the chocolate cheese cake and the cheese taste is not tt strong, so not tt bad(=
we gorged ourselves full on bread with chicken soup haha!
after i reached home, my system just shut down,
i went to bed from 12 to 12!!
xDD
and zzz.. my thing came at night...
heng it din come during the camp, but it's stl quite unexpected:/

it was only ytd tt i realise how much i missed him haha, absence makes the heart grower fonder(=

i think it's quite weird being tgt with tw)=
like we actly used to call more often than now, more things to talk abt
and we also go out more.
but tt's probly cos we used to be so much more free.
sigh~
i feel like asking him to go find me aft my camp this week, but then i always have this feeling like i'm imposing on him?
like i dn wanna mafan him so i end up nvr asking)=
it's still abit strange between us i guess..
sometimes, we'll hold hands, i'll hook his arm (like i like to do with lynnie(:)
but it's not everytime, not like those couples who are totally comfortable with each other ie. not like when i hook lynnie everytimexD
hmm it takes time ba..
and characters of pple involved..
i think sometimes he can sense when i'm not feeling happy,
then i also sort of distance myself away from him..
zzz i dn like this abt myself!!
sigh and most of the time when i'm not happy, it's cos of him.. )=
being tgt with him cheers me up though(=
but somehow i feel like i want us to be closer, but we just can't.
i dno how to tell him though zzz..
haha heng, dn think he reads my blog, or noes tt it exists.

zzz he doesn't like smsing)= not smsing me at least... RAHH.